As Good As It Gets

I need to admit that I am fear of choosing. It gets so serious, that I do not know what to do anymore.

Few days ago, I went to the store to buy drinks. You know, there are gazillions of choices of drinks you can find in a supermarket.I can either choose from mineral water,carbonated drinks,alcoholic drinks,sugar-free drinks,imported ones etc. This is easy, I was longing for mineral water,so I go to mineral water department.Then, I can choose either pure mineral water or distilled water. My lecturer told me that, the pure mineral water processed in Malaysia does not adhere to the health standard as required by WHO. So, I didn’t want to get Sprizter, Borneo, and any mineral water which sources are local. So, I am left with imported ones, which are Perrier and Evian. Come to think again, "Why do I need to spend so much on just a bottle of mineral water?" .So I canceled my plan to get the imported ones.

So,I thought of getting distilled water instead. But then, there are so many brands to choose from. I saw Sprizter, Desa, Cactus and other brands so unfamiliar. Then, I think again, which one to get? When I look at the pricing, some are very cheap, and the cheapest one was the in brand distilled water(Jusco) which cost around 40 cents.I thought "Why is it so cheap? Probably there is dangerous substances they did not filter while processing it". Then, I go to a bit more pricey than  the mentioned above and it costs around 80 cents. I thought to myself " 80 cents for distilled water? Hmm that is actually quite exorbitant" . I stop for awhile and stand in front of the rack and browse thoroughly with few glances. Left me in destitute, thirst and utter confusion. So, now I look at the volume factor of the distilled water, and I notice that some has 600ml of volume and the rest was the standard 500ml. But then, these distilled water with 600ml of volume are brands which I never heard before and were processed in Selangor, and everyone knows that Selangor water source is polluted. For Borneo distilled water, the price was quite pricey, although it is much cleaner than the Selangor processed distilled water. Oh boy, left me with so much of thinking, just buying a bottle of mineral water.

So, how did the story ends? At the end of the day, I bought a sweetened drinks, heavily processed, and contain lots of preservatives,colouring and  flavouring, which is indeed more harmful than any distilled water I saw on the rack just now.It costs me around RM3. I walk away from the cashier directly to the exit door of Jusco, wasting so much time,energy and effort.Just to choose the ‘right’ thing to drink.Geez.

The moral of the story is, know what is right and do not be so picky like Douglas Jok Jau, or else you are just wasting lots of your time.

Thank you for filling the void,which was finally filled,after 20 years of lost and fumbling.
Thank you,for giving me a reason to breath again.
Thank you,for the illusionary ecstasy pills every time with you.
Thank you,for certain adjustment is finally settled.
Thank you,for all the good things you done.
Thank you,for your unnerving glances.
Thank you,for stopping me from squirming.
Thank you,for diluting the haziness.
Thank you,for making me comfortable.
Thank you,for seeing me through other spectrum.
Thank you,for remembering me all the time.
Thank you,for your caring and gentle manner.
Thank you,for unbiased views towards me.
Thank you,for the special bonding.
And finally, thank you, for being you.
I love you.

Today,I went for a haircut and the guy was really good.Much better than all the saloons back in Miri. I’m glad my look didn’t turn out to be ah beng look.I get what I want,and in the process of acquiring it,if it involved a second party who partake an important role to realize my goal and aspiration,I do whatever it takes for the 2nd party to do well.The guy cut my hair they way I want it to be and I am one happy camper!Teehee..

Yeah,I got myself a new room at U Heights already!Now,everything is nearby,so happy!The room is decent,well I don’t expect high-end furniture,with adorned chandelier on the ceiling and persian carpet to be laid on the floor.At least,there is proper household equipments like fridge , stove,tv etc.Makes me feel homey.Oh,there is a pool downstairs.I think it should be useful for me to learn swimming nowadays.I lack survival skill.Swimming is not just for prehistoric people,right?I mean,what if I go for a cruise on the sea and the ship sinks.And the only mean of surviving is swimming?And there is Streamyx.Yeah,finally,a smooth,constant flowing of internet connection without much fucked up server.Now I can hook on the Internet for hours without going out too much.

My new haircut and a place booked for me for the next semester.I am one QUITE happy boy today.Why not elated at all?Still waiting for my scholarship money to be banked in.But it is fine,I am not too desperate for money.

It’s all good nowadays.I remain sober,my path of thinking is not as winding as it used to be.Instead of disoriented,I am can concentrate better,I gained my ego in matter of weeks.I ditched my alter ego,and unmasked myself.Feels better.

Nothing beats the state of happiness.To be happy,there is a need to plan on what to get doing.It’s like a battle,unless you read Art Of War,you will lose out to your foe.Life lesson numero uno, to be in the state of happiness is an easy task.You obtained it with a click of buttons.That easy.In this information age,nothing is impossible.

Lesson 1#To be happy,do not repress yourself.Just remember this short sentence to be happy.Let go.Yes,just let it/them go.

Money,money,money.Yeah,when there is sufficient money for our needs,we want more of it.Definition of "needs" vary from one person to another.A person in Darfur would define it "Food and shelter",and for Paris Hilton, its "Drugs,condoms,booze,men".Needs turns to greed,its just a part of human nature.We want more and more money.I am trying(like most everyone) to control this irresistible desire,and it works(at certain time).But instead of expecting money,why not make it?Yeah,money is nothing but a piece of paper which is heavily processed in order to be useful.To obtain it,there are 2 ways,either be smart or work hard,or both.I choose to be smart.

Lesson 2#It pays to get constant monetary supply.

If I mention about one’s weight,it probably triggers the excessively dramatic moments in one’s life.We heard horrible stories from people who tried to lose weight(or gaining weight).Everyone would have their own opinions about losing weight.I wish not to elaborate further,or else I’d end up mocking myself.

Lesson 3#Losing weight is not easy,but if you stay consistent,you can make it.

"I love myself".Yeah I do.I think am good - looking,handsome,gorgeous and all synonymous words to the adverbs mentions.Yeah,I do.It is true to the adage "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder".I agree.If you think I am fugly,yeah whatever you dickhead.But,I truly,truly loath people who never perceive themselves as good-looking,although I complimented them.I mean,God gave you that look,so appreciate it,carry yourself with a lot of pride.Looks is DEFINITELY  important,it determines who you are and how you feel bout yourself.Most people are in self-denial.There is absolutely no reason why a person can’t be judged by their looks.I read an article back many years ago,that a person who is better looking gets better pays,better job,and even convicts get lighter sentence.But then,if your looks does not match the general acceptance of what is beautiful,it doesnt matter,I like it when a person is vain,it shows confidence and high self-esteem.

Lesson 4#Yeah,I know I am gorgeous.

I took geology subject,and I learnt that rocks come in different categories,shapes,sizes,textures etc.So is people.People fascinates me.I am amazed by the pools of people I met here in Penang.I learn from them,accept them as who they are,and embrace them with a lot of love.Here,I am alone,with no any family member or even childhood friends around.Among these throngs of people,there are certain characters which I dislike at first,but soon,I learnt to accept them as who they are.Real-life encounters have funny and sometimes outrageous ways of teaching me about living among the society.Sometimes it is painful,sometimes it is joyful,but in the end,I felt rewarded,because I can manage through.I still survive,with the help of people around me.

Lesson 5#People is the most treasured entity on earth.As a minute part of that entity,I am entitled to run obligations to make sure the system work orderly,without too much hitches.

I,Douglas Jok Jau,am a normal person,nothing so special.But,I believe I am special in my own rights,and no one can take that title away from me.I ride this life,trying not to fall down,even if I do,I will get back up again,I will not falter.