As Good As It Gets

It has been awhile since I blog.Seems like everyone is getting busy nowadays, just browse through our friends profile,some of them did not update their profiles for weeks. As everyone gets older, more responsibilities coming their way and daily routine of updating friendster’s profile, going out with friends etc become a once in a bluemoon activities.

Yeah,everyone is getting older.Bye bye teenage years,hello adulthood.

I am sure everyone is struggling through these times and it is never easy.Our parents keep reminding us that it would not be an easy journey but we just shrug it off.Once the time comes, padan muka.

Rewind to a few years back,when all of our worries are mainly about studies, where to go hanging out with friends etc.

Now we have more important issues, like lifetime commitment, future jobs, the pain of loneliness, money management,about trusting people etc.Now, we are facing real world,there are people who tried to cheat us,taking a real advantage of our kindness.There are people who tried to get our money.We faced dilemmas.Now,we learned to do things ourself,like going to the bank.(I do not know how to do banking bussiness at the counter before this,seriously!)Still, our worries as mentioned previously still important,but with more heavier responsibility coming our way.

It is not easy,right?

Don’t you wish we can get out of these things?But we can’t escape,still we have to face them as we get older.

I am 20 this year,yet I felt so old.No,I can’t rewind time,I can’t fast forward too.

I just want to wish all of my friends good luck in whatever you are doing,and in going through these times,you will have all of my support.I hope all of you know what you are doing now,and have clear direction where to go next.

Keep your chin up,walk tall,march like a soldier and do not forget to smile.It is not easy,but you will have my and believe all of our friends support going through tough times.

This is my appeal for public advice.

    I never regret taking up this course.Since I was in my form 4,I knew that I will take up this course because of my familiarity with the oil and gas industry, and my interest in earth sciences. I came from Miri, where the oil exploration in Malaysia started,and I am surrounded with relatives who work with the petroleum companies. Another factor, probably the main reason why it promises me good future is the good renumeration.Besides, being an adventurous person, I am ready for challenges, exploring the world, go and see what the world has to offer to me.I am not afraid of dying in the process of acquiring this experience.

    I am full of enthusiasm, very elated because I was offered this course.

    But, something struck me just now. I never put this into consideration at all, I was too selfish for my own self.

    What if I am attached to someone,and my job required me to hop here and there? I would miss my loved one very dearly. Thinking about it makes me regret for not taking this issue in consideration.I can’t leave someone I love, not even a moment.This makes me sad, I just do not know why I did not think about this.I am too blinded by my red - blooded thirst for adventure and forget about something else which is more important, which having someone to love and being loved.
    I saw on the newspaper job advertisement  today, and there are plenty of jobs offered for engineering graduates.Why I did not consider engineering in the first place? I want to stay in just one place without going places too much.
    I do not know what to do anymore. There is no one I can turn to give advice.So, now I appeal for advice from anyone reading this.I am totally lost now.