As Good As It Gets

Avin na noon kelunan bara ket ji’ek marung kelunan hak’beh? Avin dahak besak nunih, usik dahak ngenep admit that dalok sendirik tek kah ket ji’ek marung dahak sendirik. Melak -melak kui kelunan besak nunih.

Akui lok anih hinih,avin tok men heleh kui kelunan tengaran ji’ek marung kelunan hak’beh. Cheh!

Being hypocrite is a form of self - loathing which ultimately will hurt the perpetrator of the attitude himself.Its a karma, an equal reciprocation , an annihilation to one’s characteristic.

I seek solace,in serenity, with the High Above.

Our Father,who art in Heaven.
Holy be Thy name,Thy Kingdom come
Thy will be done on earth as in Heaven,
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sins against us,
Do not bring us to the test,but deliver us from evil.

Our country,Malaysia, consists of different cultures, ethic groups, and traditions. To my friends in Peninsular Malaysia, when mention about diversity of races, I mean it is not only Malay, Chinese and Indian.

Remember, our country consists of minority groups particularly in the East side of Malaysia. There are Iban, Kenyah, Kayan, Kelabit, Melanau etc. From what I know, there are also minority groups in Peninsular Malaysia there such as Orang Asli, Siamese, etc.

I come from a minority group called Kayan.We are from a larger community called Orang Ulu. We have our own distinct culture, language and lifestyle.

I was just browsing the website, and I found out that Kayan people has a total population of 27,000 people in Malaysia.Malaysia has a total population of 27 million. That makes us consist of 0.001 percent of total Malaysia population!

Hmmm…0.001 percent,small percentage.

Advantage of being a Kayan boy.

Only 0.001 percent of the total population can speak Kayan, so if I go to KL and start to swear foul language randomly on the street,no one will understand me.Hahahah.

I can use a secret password for my friendster, Yahoo mail etc, without worrying that a non-technical person will crack my password.Yahoo!

I am EXOTIC.Haha.I am like a rare white tiger, elusive and hard to track.At least that is how I look at myself when I compare myself to my friends.

I can pretend to be a tourist,when the circumstance needs me to pretend to be one.For instance, one time,I was lost inside a building somewhere in KL.So, I unintentionally entered a room which I was not supposed to be in.Then, the stout and fierce security guard who was there confronted me. He asked me "Hey,buat apa sini?Mana boleh masuk!". So, I spoke to him in BM intertwined with Kayan. He gave me a blank stare and I explained to him that I was a tourist and got lost in the building. He asked me "Are you Thai?". Without hesitation, I answered "Yeah,sawa dee kap". So, he let me go, and I was spared from taken to the head security. Huhu.

Disadvantage

People give a sharp, blank stare when ever I tell someone my ethnicity.

I have to work 3 X harder compared to everyone in anything I do.Well, I do not know how to properly explain it here, but being a minority is not easy, a lot of you out there would not understand the feeling of being dejected, racism issues, double standard etc.

If you are a Sarawakian, you know that Kayan people is being stereotyped as jungle people, primitive, reject the wave of development and do not speak English.No, I know many Kayans who are very successful in their own field, without government assistant.Despite our status as bumi, but it does not help a lot.We work hard to achieve our goal in life,because being a Kayan is not easy especially in Malaysia.

I know some Kayan relatives who were physically abused just because who they are.Its really sad.

Hmmm…well, I am a human.No matter what is the background,there are problems in life.Life gotta go on! Chiaow!!!

Probably this would be the lamest blog entry ever.The intention of I posted this blog is to excessively brag about my sooo cool name.My given name is Douglas, and I noticed that there aren’t many Douglasas(is this a word?) around.Its not one of the ubiquitous names given by parents to their children, despite a unique and sometimes catchy name.

Douglas.It exudes a sense of calmness and innocence.Combined that with my non - threatening outward physical looks, its a perfect concoction for drawing people’s attention. I would be the epitome of a good,caring and responsible citizen,family member and friend due to my given name.

Douglas.I stand out among the Brians, Thomases,Jacks etc out there.People address me as "Doug!", which is so cool or Douggie! if trying to be cheeky with me.Huhu.

D - Dandy O - Outstanding U - Useful G - Gregarious L - Longevity A - Astute  S - SEXY

This is truly a vainglorious moment.

I know most of you prefer to put the acronym this way because the level of disgust at this entry is extremely high

D - DEMORALIZING O-OBNOXIOUS U - USELESS G - GORE L - LAME! A - A**HOLE S - STUPID

Yeah,I had to admit that I have nothing else good to blog about today.

Well,CHOW

Cliche,cliche,cliche..but the truth is,everyone wants a piece of an extraordinary achievement.I believe that I have pushed my boundary,I have already jumped over the barricade of obstacles.

All I want to do now is to be focused of what is really important in life.Priotize what is important and GET RID OF USELESS tangible and intangible items.Life has so much to offer, so why bother to indulge in senseless activities?I realised this long time ago,and I think I managed to get rid of certain negativity from my life.

Meanwhile,gotta focus!Tomorrow,I will show up at work,chin high up,spirit boasted with pride,stride my walk as if no one is around passing by!

Ok, my dad, and friends keep pestering to take up my driver’s license.Especially my dad,he has been very vocal about it. Every time he sends me to work,he would bring up the topic about getting a driver’s license.Dad would lecture me and keep stressing the importance of having a proper driver’s license.

I believe everyone out there would tell me the same thing.Ok,sure, but………please do not pressure me.To be honest,I am very very lazy to go through the arduous process of obtaining driving license.I mean,is it necessary to go through all the red tapes imposed by the authority.

I mean,everyone was looking forward to take up their driving license because it is sooo cool to drive around and show off to their friends that they’re driving.So,that makes me uncool,because I do not drive.Everytime friends ask me to go out,I expect one of them to pick me up from my house.Yeah,I am the boring Douglas, I am uncool,unlike my friends who already obtained their driving license after high school.Huhu

A few months back,I took the table test,and I resit for the test, 5 TIMES! Its a record! I mean,its impossible to fail the test, most of my friends passed the test after one time taking the test.

Ever since that day,I refuse to go to the MYEG branch.I have no motivation or whatsoever to continue my training.

Every time I look at someone around my age driving,I keep wondering,"When will I get my own driving license?". But, due to my bad habit of procrastinating, I think it wont be soon. I need someone to push me to take  it up.

In the mean time, I am probably the most boring guy in the list.I commute to work by car, but its dad who drives me.I go around in Penang by bus.I walk to the university every day.

Look at the bright side,one person emits a lot of carbons to the environment which will damage the ozone layers.So, I am being green, a strong advocate of environmental protection.

Chow!

Everyday.(Mon - Friday)

6.30am-Wake up,shower
7.00am-Commute to work
7.30am-Breakfast
8.00am-Work
12.00pm-Break
5.00pm-Go back home

6.00pm-At home
6.00pm - 9.00pm-Rest,shower,eat,tv n sleep

Saturday
Whole morning - Catch up my sleep
Afternoon - Idle
Night-TV

Sunday
Whole morning- Church.Amen
Afternoon - Sleep
Night - Sleep

I can make 90 copies of these daily planning,and paste them into each page in my diary,every single day,from 4th May - 5th July

No,I am not complaining.
But.
I love my work now,especially after today because I was given very positiveee review from my colleague  during the mid -internship review.Yippie!

Yes,I am pretty sure that a geoscientist is a purrfect profession for me.Give me more time,then I can be as good as every one else in my department.

Its quite an interesting and challenging job.The department I would like to join in the future is seismic processing dept.Seismic is actually the study of propagation of wave in the earth subsurface.

As everyone knows,when a wave(sound wave) travels in a medium,its properties are altered because the earth layers has different densities due to the pore spaces between rocks.Rocks also contains different level of hardness,which what we called acoustic impedence,which is simple the multiplication of velocity of wave in the rock to its density.That is one main reason why sound wave properties is altered when it propagates in the earth.

So,a seismic processor will process the data in order to "clean out" the unwanted altered seismic waves.These "altered seismic wave" is called a noise.Noise literally means something that is unwanted.

Basically,that is a bit about the scope of my job,and it not only consist of removing this noise problems but also many other processes which are very complex and require a lot of intuitive problem solving and also lengthy mathematical equations.Rote learning will not work,so to understand the job,I have to get the overview of everything about seismic.

Thats a bit of introduction to this work.Hopefully I can fulfill this dream,though not easy,but I am the type of person who likes challenges in life.

Ronald,hire moi!

Everytime I am on the net,I always visit youtube to watch any good video available. Just now I stumbled into some videos that pay tributes the loss of loved ones posted from people all over the world.

Most of the videos are made by families and friends of the deceased, and these videos touch my heart. Most of the deceased are very young people, whose life cut short at very young age. There was this girl, Elizabeth, born in the year 1990 died 2 years back.

I mean, she was just a teenager, she had a long life ahead of her.But destiny called her for the perpetual rest.

I know that the majority of us out there do not think so much about death, whether it would be our own demise or anyone we are close with. We feel that we have years ahead of us, so much time left to fulfill all the desire in the heart.

But the deceased young souls could be one of us. They have people who loved them and remember them as great persons.

It makes me feel fortunate that everyone in my family is well.Thank God for the blessings in life that He gives me.

So, appreciate the presence of people around you.No one is spared from death,someone we love will leave in the future, leave us for eternity.

Young souls like us have a lot of things to appreciate.Let go of hatred and spread the love to your loved ones especially your parents while they are still alive

As for me,I am not afraid of death.I live life with out too much expectations,and I live dangerously.

And I wont neglect the presence of loved ones.

Rest in piece to all the young people whose precious life cut short.

Hey,I’ve assigned a new category, "Work". Yeah, welcome to the unstoppable working world!

Well, it is not really all work,but at least I got the taste of working life.

Basically,I am under the summer Shell’s internship programme as a seismic processor in the EPA-T-DGP team. I am already halfway in the program, but due to hectic schedule, I can’t squeeze time to blog. Its already 2 am in the morning now, but I take this opportunity to blog about werk.
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Ummm…actually….

I do not know what to talk about,its…just..all…about work.

Oh man.

Ok,maybe I would like to highlight some of the benefits that I receive while working there. There’s a gym, massage chairs,free drinks, free utensils..Wait,aren’t these benefits available in most companies nowadays?Those are nothing so special,then.

Seriously,working life is not really something to be anticipated. Anyone of you who are currently pursuing your education,I bet most of you are looking forward to get a job after graduation.Most of you give the same answer to the reasoning,which is "tired of studying". Hey,remember,most of your supposedly study time is allocated solely for studying, but I believe most of you spend time having fun with friends,being rebellious and all.

Working life comes with more heavy duty,big responsibility and couple that with family related issues, financial issues(always the no 1 problem in head) etc, then you will wish that you could go back to your growing years.

I am starting to get the sense of working life.What ever I am experiencing now is just a small stepping stone before making what I called "The Great Leap" into real working life.

Having to wake up early, stay in the office for hours,sit still in the cubicle while doing work in front of the computer etc.Is this what you(yes, you, the one who is soo excited to work) going to do,everyday,for the rest of your life.Hmmm

I wish I can freeze the time and stay in the present reality forever in a still frame.But  life has to go on.

To everyone who is preparing for the 1st proper job,buckle up,because it will be a bumpy ride.

To everyone who is already working, do not be jealous of us students, you used to be a student,and you had your fun already!

In the meantime,I better go search any Koh Samui related tourism website, because that is where my next destination for my semester break getaway! Chow!